Sion Laments

Lamentation of the times

The following is an allegorical account of the pain that first is intense and reduces one to the spiritual self alone and then slowly reconstructs it back into rejuvenation at the hands of immense trials and tribulations. Here the man cries out to Jerusalem which houses his wives all of whom have strayed and he is too helpless watching the wives’ folly only to find that he himself is being reconstructed from the foundations in the process. The versifications are reminiscent of the lamentations which was the subject of a previous blog. True to the situation, the man alternates between love and passion and despair and deep wretchedness, imploring God, complaining, confusedly recapitulating his own life and slowly recognizes the folly of the wives and separates himself from it and realizes that this was what he wanted after all and the pain of the time was inevitable.


What is the issue? No amount of blaming Sion prior to or after the incident need make him feel guilty. The 12 year suffering came only due to the guilt of Jerusalem. If the central issue is the trespass of Jerusalem, then Sion has no choice but to dismiss her.The question of whether Sion's behavior was contributive of the trespass is in the moral sense irrelevant. Because, it is for Jerusalem to have her guards alerted at the gate. In a relative sense may be Sion should have shown love and affection albeit as an enactment which would have helped overcome any advances at Jerusalem. The larger question of why this is happening to Sion can only be taken at the spiritual level to avoid any despair. The answer is this is human life. If not for this there is some trial that everyone goes through. That is human life, of choices and mistakes and wrong calculations and unexpected fallouts and out of the blue bolts.All assumptions of a smooth life are faulty.The trials are part of life. The extreme pain that Sion experiences now only can strengthen it. One has to go through this. Only one should be able to bear it in the interim.

The pain that is to the body is one thing. There may be people who love you around to console you. The pain that near ones inflict upon you are less bearable.Because, you are alone in the suffering.One approach is to consider the current pain as a withdrawal symptom while trying to escape from an addiction. The absence is just like an abstinence from an addictive substance. It might take a while when Sion gets over the withdrawal symptom.

In a way the absence relieves Sion and children from the conflict. He had only a negative relief. They had the picture of more idealistic ones compatible in body and mind.One matures and one can really decide the compatibility or not.The identity of the father cannot be denied by Jerusalem and her daughters. Jerusalem cannot deny Sion as long as the child needs as the law provides. Hope good sense would prevail.We grow by unexpected setbacks. Some get it early in some departments others get it in other departments. In some cases no department is spared. This is a cause for concern. The accidents to Sion were many. Subsequent despair and forced choices and Sion’s addiction, the wrong selection and the wrong location the wrong selection again and now the abandonment may be atypical of an average human being. Any mate that Jerusalem finds is an appendage to the first one. The present state is only an exposition of the hidden truth that Sion ignored or suppressed. In this sense Sion is only relieved of the burden of associating with the wrong people.
That things have gone so pathetic at the other side is proven by the fact that Jerusalem refuses to meet a third opinion. Any third party would see through the hollowness of the arguments. ‘I am giving you your freedom’ makes immense sense. Was it not what Sion was craving for?

The unequal yoking was actually a drain on Sion. It was sapping his energy all the twelve years. The agony of being used as a stepping stone is immense. In a way this was all designed although Sion failed to recognize when it was executed. The root cause remains the incompleteness of the yoking. Of adamance and emptiness all over Jerusalem. Filling emptiness with corporate trappings in the right ambience is even more dangerous.

One should say Sion should develop some space for the corporate side, a few more cells reserved for corporate behavior. However, all plans seem to be executed by someone else. One should design one’s movement into something better now. Visualise , visualize….Too little too late to the second largest country. The simplified process came late for the good of Sion. With the corporate shares as well the shares were not got. Sion finds himself late everywhere. Why can’t she forgive when one can forgive trespasses. Jerusalem denies her trespass. Does she not have a conscience?

Is extreme pain good for us physically, mentally? Why do some get it so much? Why did Sion get involved with some people so sadistic? Lord why have you abandoned Sion? Lord give me the courage and strength to hold on. Is Jerusalem better off in this situation? Her freedom, position and money are her strengths now. But they are all materialistic. When will she recognize that? That Jerusalem sided with the evil men itself is cause for Sion to agonise for he did all in the larger interests of Jerusalem and her daughters.

To do this son of man will have to get out of this despair. Lord, when will Sion be out? When will you restore Sion to his former glory? Or is Sion a perpetual scare for you? Why everything is a pain for Sion? The scheming, cunning way in which Jerusalem abandoned the land is too much. She joined other forces and is in the arms of the enemies and now Sion is all alone. But she does not recognise it is all an infatuation. Why Sion? Sion cannot reach out. The only comfort was Jerusalem and her daughters for whom he was working. What sense can someone make out of Sion's own life? Where shall the sons of Sion go hide? What is their future? What shall he hope on? One cannot trust oneself. One is weak physically and mentally. Sion is too weak to take up any assignment.

Sons of Sion are overwhelmed by the many problems that they go through. Each time Sion expected something would come up to console him later. Each time new issues come. This is the end of another dream.

Sion fails to recognise the tipping points. He did not bother to correct. He did not shape Jerusalem. Sion and his sons cannot hope to do anything with her. Any miracle has to come from above. Where there is complete change of circumstance all at once to give a new life to Sion. In fact Sion prayed for a new life without knowing this much of immense pain is in store.

Is there no medicine for mental agony? Should not Sion see some one professionally trained? Is Jerusalem changing into a city of loose women with no morals? What is Sion to do with it? What will happen to her sons? What will happen to the fathers who are weakened? Lord why have you forsaken Sion? Sion is beset with problems from Sion's near ones and the in laws and even his wives have turned against him. Every where he looks it is scary. Even death is not an alternative.

Sion and his sons have no where to run away. Caught by sadistic wives on all sides in deep sea. How can you save Sion now? When things get tough the tough get going. Is it? Sion am reduced to his spiritual self alone. His body is weak. His mind is enfeebled. His heart is torn. His social side is to collapse. His intellectual side is mundane. Only his spirit is left.

Only his spiritual side is being strengthened in the process. Is there a rainbow at the end of the tunnel? What life has Sion left? What can Sion hope for? What have Sion's innocent children done? Sion wanted them to grow healthy in body and mind. Why is it happening to Sion? Is there no happiness anywhere? What about the many other people who suffer. Are they all this pained? Why is Jerusalem not giving him another chance?

Can Sion be reformed to suit Jerusalem? Can Jerusalem be reformed to suit Sion? Is it impossible for God to perform a miracle? Sion is being ruined in gold too. When Sion has to knock at his enemy Egyptians it will be a drain one him. The sons of Sion have to be looked after. What is left of Sion? Lord how can you destroy Sion like this? Why don’t you play a miracle on her conversion? But she is under the influence of the other wives. What is the solution?

Jerusalem is not even willing to talk it out with a third person. The priests and elders are ready, for war will destroy all of us. She does not budge even a bit. And when finally she agreed it was only to get rid of Sion. What a bind is Sion in? How can anyone change this circumstance? Why are you delaying a miracle? Sion is thinking of the extreme step of dying himself. But even that is scary. What will happen to Sion and the sons ? What happens to Sion as a coward?

Is it not cowardice not to face and to overcome? How can Sion give meaning to his life when she is leaving with the other wives? How can Sion acommodate and adjust if Jerusalem turns back? Sion sees no hope. Unless you immediately act some miracle to restore Sion's family to him. Sion promised to be more compassionate to all. Sion is compassionate to all. Only he spends too much time with himself. How will Sion bear this dejection? How come from all sides there is tremendous negative. Is human life so? Is it so? Why is life so painful? Why are we all born into hard times?

Why father, heavenly father? Why did Jerusalem become so sadistic? How did Sion get into this trap? Mother Mary did send some powerful symbols which only Sion knows was promising which gave a lot of positive hope in a worldly way. Is Sion to trust them? Is he to believe the one that he has is to continue or that he is to get a new one? However what is the emotional quality of his life now? Mustn't he get over it now?

How is it that when Sion speaks to Jerusalem he finds in a mood all the more unlike any other time? Who is Sion talking to someone who is so strange and unforgiving? Why is Sion living? Why is Sion in a bind all the time in his life? Six months Jerusalem says she will be ..Leave it to God..Go joint God decide…then why not stop petition. How can Sion change her mind? What kind of stone is her heart? Why is Jerusalem making a mess of her cities?

She is not honest at all Sion am all the more happy. She shapes her arguments in ever more crookish ways. How can anyone cope with a crookish woman? One could say it is all the sins of one and of the forefathers? What basis? Is it the work of evil forces? Is Sion not special to receive all the possible troubles in one life?....

An immense peace pervades Sion after 21 days. He recognises that what he has gone through was not entirely unforeseen or undesirable. He has seen himself shorn of his all other selves except at the deep soul level. He has seen his deep self. Now the rest of it is slowly regenerating. Jerusalem is left to herself. Sion has to go on and Sion will go on. No amount of trials and tribulations is now unbearable to him. His heart is tender as ever but his soul has borne the thorns and can bear for all others too. Nothing was meaningless. Everything has a purpose.......